I wasn't going to blog today but I realized that it's been awhile since my last blog and it isn't fair to read everyone else's blog but not contribute. Feeling a little bit down today and for the last few days and I'm not sure why. My weight is the same (big surprise) and I don't think my blue mood is all about the weight loss or lack thereof. I just feel lately that there is no fun in my life. I get up, get things done, get things done, get things done, and go to bed. Next day repeat! Right now I'm in the middle of getting three months of accounting done for our business (my husband is terrible about giving me receipts in a timely fashion), also filling out financial aide forms to transfer my son from Towson University to our community college (yep - he is miserable being away from home right now and I told him to just get his gen ed credits at community college), my second oldest son is getting ready to take his Praxis teacher tests which he just found out he needs before he can register for a few mandatory classes next semester. I spent a day with him trying to figure out where he could get the test done pronto! It turns out he can fit into a testing center this Saturday IF he drives into Baltimore all the way to the downtown waterfront area of Canton. He is not comfortable with driving in the city yet, so guess who gets to get up early Saturday and drive him in and then while away 4 1/2 hours in downtown Baltimore by myself while I wait for him to finish up? I asked my husband if he could take him but "he's not sure about his schedule yet for Saturday". My oldest son is driving me crazy just because he always drives me crazy. It's hard having my "I know way more than you do" 22 year old son home all the time. My husband has been working constantly and then when he is home is is either on the phone arranging things for his work (how can anyone log 2,500 phone minutes a month?) or falling asleep in his chair before 9:00pm every night. Remember that window that has been sitting at my house? Well he finally decided to put it in and board up the two old windows just yesterday. That means I have construction going on in my living room for about two hours every night as he trys to fit this project into his busy schedule.
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| New Window & old window with drywall |
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| Other old window behind TV/bookcase that needs drywall mud and paint |
I LOVE that he waited until the week before I'm having everyone over for Thanksgiving to start this job which will also involve painting two walls!! So that's about it. I spend most of my time getting things done for everyone else, and worrying about & solving everyone's predicaments. Where is the fun??? My husband has been way too busy for the past three months for us to do anything fun together, and my"go to" boys that I always counted on to have fun with are understandably busy with school and girlfriends. I really need to start getting out of the house and finding something for just me to do - if I was smart that would be some kind of exercise class - but somehow that doesn't sound like fun?? What I'd really like to do is forget about all this stuff that constantly needs doing and jump in the car and take a road trip! Well, sorry to rant and whine so much and it's not even about the BFC!! To get back on topic, this afternoon I'm making a beef, vegetable soup for dinner and might throw in some lentils (after I check with "my fitness pal" to see how many carbs that would add). I'm also thinking about trying to make some little mini pumpkin "tarts" with almond crust. I'll let you know how that turns out because they could be nice for Thanksgiving or to serve with that pumpkin cheesecake Diana posted. Wow, I just re-read all this and I sound like such a complainer - sorry about that and thanks for letting me rant!! Hope everyone else is feeling good!
I think it's just that time of year, Beth! I've got a list like that too. I want to make mini tartlets with almond crust too. mmm
ReplyDeleteOh my gosh, misery loves company....Your post made me smile because it made me feel like we are sisters in this life! This change of season tends to effect all moods and intensify feelings doesn't it? Carey posted a cute saying on facebook yesterday about "no one appreciates what we do until we don't do it anymore". I think that was the jest. Well, my kids don't really appreciate all that I have done along the way and I am starting to slowly let it go.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry that your husband is so busy. I'm sure he thinks he is doing you a huge service by getting the windows done before Thanksgiving! I used to have Tuesday-Friday evenings alone because my hubby traveled.
I know that starting some kind of activity that involved other women would be helpful for you. I say that as I am being reclusive from my friends and exercise!
The fact that you would drive your son to Baltimore and then wait for him all day is very kind. Maybe find a bookstore and sit down and read or look through magazines all day. What would make Beth happy:)
Blessings my friend, from a whiner!
Beth, you can vent all you want. I have felt the same way many, many times lately. Life just seems like all it consists of is making everyone else happy, meeting their needs, and putting yourself last. I can so relate. As another wife working for her husband, I can say it has its downside. The days all sort of run together. Get up, go through the daily routing, go to bed, wake up repeat. That's why I am addicted to this computer. It's a way of escaping and catching up on what's going on with the rest of the world. So vent anytime. I think you have a lot of us feeling the same way and we understand. BIG hugs to you from me!
ReplyDeleteHI Beth, It sure seems like we are all having a bad day lately. There is a lot going on in your life. I am sure everything will work out. Your soup and tarts sound great. And Husbands can be a pain sometimes - but in their heart I think they mean well.
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Beth, you aren't alone! I'm feeling that way, too and it's still sunny and relatively warm in Calif so we can't blame the weather. I did post that message on facebook which Kay was talking about and also posted that I was ready to go to a hotel to see how long my family would live in their sloth! I was only half kidding :) The funny thing is that my 9 yr old just told me that he has to earn $10 for his class assignment to give to a Christmas charity/family. I'm using this to my advantage and it's really lifting my mood. I had him scrub 3 toilets and now he's cleaning the grout between the travertine by the tv and where he eats most of the time. It's making me feel a lot better and is money well spent. I hope you find something fun and relaxing to do when you are in Baltimore. I like the coffee and book idea :) BTW-my husband would do something like add a new window right before we have guests, but it would take him 5 yrs to finish it :/
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Bless you Kay! Life is just messy sometimes, and we ALL have our days.
ReplyDeleteI agree all work & worry is no fun-and sometimes the idea of creating some seems like too much work.
When my kids were living at home, sometimes I went on mini-vacas by myself. It was part of staying sane! We all have to find our own way to sanity!
You'll figure out what's going to work best for you.
Take Care
I hear ya about feeling there is no fun, it's easy to feel that way sometimes at any stage in life. I also feel the same way right now and I definatly want a road trip. I agree with the others you should find something fun to do while you wait for your son. Those couple of hours away could be the re-charge to your batteries you need. Maybe a nice massage would do the trick. Have a wonderful day :)
ReplyDeleteHi Beth, I totally understand the need to 'vent' as certain things happen. You are inspiring me as I have tried FT and lost inches but no pounds. I am headed back to BFC and will enjoy a few more choices. It's nice to know that I am not the only one who is not losing quickly but feels so much better.
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